Life is not shy when it comes to giving me ideas for these posts it seems.
Twice this week I had some interesting feedback about how others perceive me.

One was from a friend that said I was not normal, which I found to be a compliment as that I would not want to be, and to be fair they didn’t consider themselves normal either and I doubt they wanted to be.

Then I shared an idea with someone and their reaction indicated that they thought I was delusional. That is such a loaded word for me because of the amount of times people in the mental health industry have tried to wave terms like that around when they chose to that put a ceiling on my confidence and identity.

So to check on myself I went online to try a test to see where my sanity levels sat, but what I found was a perfect example of why things are so out of whack with peoples diagnosis of mental illness. I went onto a well known site and started their test and pretty much all the things they listed where things that can and should be normal behavior for a creative or entrepreneur or spiritual type of person or were behaviors of a lot of regular people that would be considered normal.

Feel more confident and capable / See things in a new and exciting light / Feel very creative with lots of ideas and plans / Become over-involved in new plans and projects / Feel that things are very vivid and crystal clear / Spend, or wish to spend, significant amounts of money / Notice lots of coincidences occurring / Note that your senses are heightened and your emotions intensified / Work harder, being much more motivated / Feel at one with the world and nature / Believe that things possess a ‘special meaning’ / Say quite outrageous things / Feel ‘high as a kite’, elated, ecstatic and ‘the best ever’ / Feel irritated / Feel quite carefree, not worried about anything / Feel very impatient with people / Laugh more and find lots of things humorous / Read special significance into things / Talk over people / Have quite mystical experiences / Do fairly outrageous things / Sing /Feel anger….

Most of the things they described in the behavior of that list are very normal in the world, and for spiritual people a lot of the things listed that the world might think are delusional or crazy are actually very normal in the supernatural.

Also I think sometimes if people cant see things as you do, if their brain is wired a different way or if God hasn’t shown them the world the way he has to you then maybe they perceive you as crazy because you don’t fit their view.

Do you have any of the words other people have said about you that like to go on replay in your mind? Ones that pop in at the opportune moment that you think Yes I can do it and then its like there is like a filing cabinet in your brain that goes ah ah ah what about this and this and what this person said…

So what is your battle plan to get from what you see as possible to it being realised without letting the army of negativity tear its foundation down?

So Just had to add some more to this blog post after last night I was watching a documentary on the musical that is being made of Murials wedding. During the show they made reference to her being a weirdo, and showed other situations that many of us face like rejection, what was significant about their mention was I have been shown to be connected to Kingdom 24 ministry with the theme of being a weirdo, that actually God has a place for those the world considers too weird. The ones that don’t fit into religious boxes, the ones rejected by others, the ones crazy enough to be a fool for him. So I found it funny that when I googled a clip from the movie that it made the reference to “Your not normal” No I’m not and neither are you and thats a good thing.