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Sep 11

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Life like a video game

Recently I had a dream that I was in a live video game and I was getting overwhelmed at trying to keep up with all the moves while there were some people making fun of me and some others looking back at my past as if that still defined me, trying to bring attention to the way they thought I was previously. This was a very interesting dream to me as I do often feel like that. Part of that is mental health stigma which is something I feel passionate about breaking. I saw something written the other day about the need for us all to view each other as God sees us and who he sees us becoming not who people think we are. Another thing I heard once is that people view us the way they need to for their purposes so how someone else sees you might have a lot less to do with you then you think. I also heard an interesting explanation the other day about hsp personalities and how they need to function in life to be their best and it makes sense why in that dream I was stressed about trying to play […]

Sep 05

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Love letters in the night

Love letters in the night (This was a response from a post on the Passion translation social media account to do an activation of writing a love letter to the father) My love for you has driven me to seek you in ways that the world considers crazy. Everyday I want to see you and hear you and feel you near. Sometimes I long so much for more of you and then when you show up it can be overwhelming and I can’t record it fast enough to remember; I dare not to waste or forget or not savor the slightest encounter of your wine. How great is your love? How can I contain it? Can I hold it and save precious drops in reserve, can I run into your arms and deep into your world living fully in the river of your love with its ebbs and flows and twists and turns and be like water weaving with you through the world and bringing refreshing to the hurting herds? Can I hold all I want from you? Can I handle all I want from you? I see your other lovers and I am jealous when they have more of […]

Aug 19

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Your not normal

Life is not shy when it comes to giving me ideas for these posts it seems. Twice this week I had some interesting feedback about how others perceive me. One was from a friend that said I was not normal, which I found to be a compliment as that I would not want to be, and to be fair they didn’t consider themselves normal either and I doubt they wanted to be. Then I shared an idea with someone and their reaction indicated that they thought I was delusional. That is such a loaded word for me because of the amount of times people in the mental health industry have tried to wave terms like that around when they chose to that put a ceiling on my confidence and identity. So to check on myself I went online to try a test to see where my sanity levels sat, but what I found was a perfect example of why things are so out of whack with peoples diagnosis of mental illness. I went onto a well known site and started their test and pretty much all the things they listed where things that can and should be normal behavior for […]

Aug 17

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It’s not over

Betrayal cuts shapes deep within, It’s thoughts linger on reply of what you think should of been. And it’s all to easy to say forgive when your not the one that still has the blade in your skin. And the things we can’t control that stir up reactions that push past logic and dive into our soul. And how many are out there wandering and searching for release of the disjointed emotions that try to hide. They hide until its too late. Until they are triggered. Until it’s time to be stirred up in a fight. Until words are said that start the cycle in another life. And then who is to blame when the one with the blade in their skin just inflicted the injustice on someone else is that how they win? The hurting, hurting the hurting, hurting the hurting and the cycle goes on, wanting to get off that show ride but bumping into another persons pride: and the intellect of man that wants to diagnose so that it can prescribe, so that it can say I am right I have my facts to decide. And the medical wards seem cold and bland. White washed walls make […]

Aug 14

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Broken girl

So I won this artwork today in a raffle after I said I wanted to win it. It’s interesting looking at it now she appears a bit cracked and broken with things holding her together and I’m wondering why I wanted her. So she has a baby and that speaks to me of the things that God trusts us with to look after. And the woman’s broken parts reminds me of this blogs title so I decided that is inspiration enough for a post. This lady also has blue hair, I wonder why the artist painted her hair blue? Was it representative of her mood or the type of creative expression she was into? Sometimes when people are a bit alternative or dress a little differently they get left out of the serious scenes but I have noticed a group of people being raised up specifically because they are different and that is actually what makes them so valuable. The other day I met a girl with bright purple hair, if she hadn’t of had that hair I wouldn’t of noticed her and invited her to a gathering and we all would of missed out on the cool things that […]

Aug 07

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Like eagle wings

And I’ll ride the waves of your love, I’ll search deep within your heart, till I’m overtaken in the realm of mysteries and intricacies with details woven into art. And it’s all I’ve ever wanted, to be lost inside your heart. Where I can’t tell where I end and you begin, and the difference can’t be torn apart. And it’s all you’ve ever wanted is to draw me to yourself, and it’s scary walking on the edge of dreams and crazy dreamlike thoughts. Let me paint the world in a way that brings light to your word and create hope filled visions that lift up the lost, let your love sweep the world and restore the broken hearts. So let me flow with you, till I’m high like eagles wings and I can see from within your eyes like my own are peering through your view. So let me hear like you do, let me hear your notes and write them into melodies, that weave and wind and twirl and mess up neatly arranged perceptions, with droplets from heaven of rare beautiful fragrances that delight the senses of truthful desires for you. And whisper more of your love into my […]

Jul 04

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True Colours

Sometimes God hides treasures inside people that can only be seen by those who are willing to dig out the gold by reaching out and building them up. In a world ware people are continually tearing each other down what if you could be the one to speak life and allow that person to become all that they can be. Today I had someone ask me how my mental illness was going, in an attempt to pull me down, but I thank them for giving me ammunition to write with. Mental illness is not a life sentence, if someone has labeled you with that just take it off and put hope on. The world is a broken place and God uses broken people. Broken crayons still colour? Here is a song I started writing the other day on this theme: I saw the sad eyes that don’t fit the way they see, so is that that really how it’s meant to be? Bottled up potential, can’t see what’s inside, walking right on by, hidden treasures are sometimes hard to find. And you can’t always see with your natural eyes, all the beauty God has hidden in their hearts. You have […]

Jul 03

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Into the Deep

Under a sea of my love for you, immerse yourself until you are renewed and caught up by my delight. There are deeper places for you to drink from in me. Deep intimacy is what I seek, come hide deep in my heart. And drink up all I have to give, let me restore you in my love. Dive deeper into the unknown depths of my love. Sink into a world of wonder and awe. Allow me to carry your heart to a deeper place where you can feel my love and you can learn how to really love me. I want you to be so deep in my love that it rushes from you like a mighty river, your eyes gazing into deep wells of mystery and extravagant love. This artwork of the tree and diving scene refers to a dream I had where I was underwater with God and he took me deep into his creativity and showed me beautiful patterns under the sea. To me it represented going deeper into him. The tree refers to a theme of being planted by his streams of living water and roots going deep into his love. Again the waterfall theme […]

Jun 19

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The unlovely

When I try and talk about mental health I quite often get people wanting to put me in a category box that fits their understanding, like I have some disease forever that, like my past is still my present in their mind just because I choose to talk about it. This is where stigmas is such a disgusting heavy cloud of shame that can sneak up on you if your not careful. I or you are not an illness, we are not defined by the worlds view of how our mind works. Everyone is on a healing journey of some kind. I feel so vulnerable starting to write these blog posts as I get very easily effected by what others think and say about me. I read once that sometimes for creative people it is like they don’t have skin and they feel everything raw like it goes straight through them, that’s how I often feel. Everyday I battle waves of anxiety that I know relates to the fear or man: who I might upset today if I say or do what I think I should. Then I will have a poem start to come to mind and I will […]

Jun 13

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There is a River

What do you see in my river? In my river are treasures of my heart, drink of me and soak in my love for you. Be overflowed and overcome in my peace and gentleness and goodness. My desire is for you to experience the depths of my love for you. There is nothing too great for me, no mountain too high that I cannot reach out and lift you to greater heights from. Increase in your awareness of me all around, I am never far away. Rest a while and drink in my love for you as I renew and refresh and restore every dry and broken place in you. Felt and digital artwork #propheticart #worshipart #healingart #art #restore